may

seven years ago
i hadn't yet moved to the east coast, nothing matters before then, except for the fact that once upon a time a has a father.

six years ago
i worked and went to high school with all of my best friends, i still speak to one person

five years ago
i was graduating high school, i was not going to prom, i was spending all of my time in northern delaware, there was melissa and there was tyler, we spent weekends at bad metal shows

four years ago
i was walking up and down and up and down and up and down main street, i was laying in andrews basement, i had a huge group of  friends and we spent every day together, i was driving my car all over the mid-atlantic to every show, i no longer have that car nor speak to any of those people

three years ago
every thing changed, nineteen turning 20, i went to kentucky and every thing changed, i went to ohio and every thing changed, i met some people who are still so good and so important, nothing has been the same since and im not sure it ever will be that good again

two years ago
i was in a new town, i was surrounded once again by an entirely new group of people, they all still matter. i was falling for a boy who would soon leave and go to new york city to never call again, i was drinking an entire bottle of wine and crying with my face pressed against the hardwood floor

one year ago
i had dinner $8 drinks at a tapas restaurant downtown treating my best friend for his birthday, i was falling asleep next to him in a house full of my other 5 closest friends, i was playing in our garden, i was planning a good bye party and drinking mad dog slushies with september, waking up still drunk to hug my best friend goodbye when he left to move to california and i cried about it in the food stamp office later

now
its 6 am on a wednesday and im sitting in the dark, i am once again surrounded by strangers that i call my friends