Not knowing whether to voice what I've been feeling or let it blow over.
Feeling like I still miss you and not knowing if I really miss you or if could be anyone.
But knowing if you were here it would make any of these other feelings null and void.
I just want to feel okay when I'm alone, but every time the house empties I can only handle being here for so long before it feels like I'll end up on the floor or sick.
