again

I was doing so well. I was so happy, so much happier than I remember being in..well, years at this point. I was content, I felt like for the time being I had everything I wanted. But now one things goes wrong, and it sends me in a downward spiral and I'm losing all the feelings I worked so hard to achieve. I'm missing the past again, I'm feeling disconnected from those who are close, I'm feeling discontent and that well-known longing for something more.

I have no idea where to go from here at this point.

repeat

I told myself never again. It's not as bad because the situation is a lot less intense, but I still promised myself I'd never feel like this again. January 1st, 2007 I got my heart stomped all over. Now the situation feels like it's being repeated. I did this to myself, I hate this. I am my own worst enemy.