004.

A lot of things are about to change and happen, and I am truly going to attempt to keep them documented.

Moving to Philadelphia was one of the best things that happened to me, do not doubt that in a few months I will be moving into my own place once again. But for now it's time to be surrounded by those I love and just live, and live in the way I truly want. Day by day, with no real structure and on limited tools of survival. This came about much more quickly than anyone expected, but it's what I want..so who needs time to prepare.

Tonight I packed most of my apartment, and then walked around the city for a bit. I needed a box to send away the college books I'm selling and I found the perfect one just two blocks down on Chestnut, and while I was walking away with it I noticed "Scottie" was written on the side. If that's not a strange coincidence, I don't know what is. I met up with Stacy and Megan and since it was Monday we went to Rittenhouse and talked and watched Four Square. All of the sudden it hit me that having Stacy so close to me is extremely important and although I'll be back in 3 months, those 3 months are going to be very difficult, although I know I'll see her all the time. I realized this mid conversation and had to interrupt her. All I could say was "Stace..Stace...Stace" and then the tears came and I just told her I'm going to miss her. And then we both just started crying which resulted in laughing at the same time. Megan had no idea what was going on, but we did. That girl is my everything, the best friend I could ask for. I'm going to miss her so much while I'm not here.

Things would be a lot less stressful if the eviction notice had come after I got back from Florida, but that's not how things worked out, and I'm just going with it. I'm stressed out about the fact that fitting all of my belongings into my car probably isn't manageable, but if that's my biggest worry, bigger than homelessness, then I'd say I'm pretty well off. So bring on the cold nights, uncomfortable couches, and the unknown plans of each and every day. I'm so ready for this. I always knew 'normal' life wasn't my path, and I don't regret giving up on college twice now at all. I will find my way. As long as I'm happy, that's all that matters. "Quit what you don't love, live as you make it up."

Other than all of this mess, I leave early Thursday morning for Florida/The Fest 8 wit Chrystina. I'm not sure I've ever been so excited. A real road trip with just me and a good friend, visiting multiple states I've never been to, documenting the entire thing via photograph and journal, an AMAING music festival, and just the overall expiernece. We'll be back monday or tuesday, unless we decide to stay longer. She told her job she'll call and let them know when she's coming back and I have no other commitments for a few weeks. Vermont, my road trip to California, Kellie visiting, California for Christmas, and Winter Tour with Cut Short are also within the next 2 months. I am about to live exactly as I'd choose, and I didn't even consciously make the choice. Here we go, here we go, here we go..