I no longer believe in friends.


To be completely honest though, it's been kind of strange recently. The people who's lives I haven't been a part of and the people who want me in their lives are the opposites of what you'd think.

Everyday is one more day with out you forever.
Everyday is one more day that I hope I'm closer to seeing you again.

Circa Survive at the fucking first unitarian church. Where I stood on stage and dance and sang my whole fucking soul out less than 6 inches away from Colin, the bassest with Anthony singing less than 3 feet away. It was surreal, and I've never felt like that before. It was different than any other feeling a show has ever given me.

Tonight was one of the best experiences of my entire life. And for once, I'm glad I was alone.



....
My heart isn't broken and I'm not dead.