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I MISS YOU. HOW MUCH MORE CLEAR CAN I MAKE IT?

But the fact of the matter is, i miss nearly everyone in my life at this point. How many people can you  miss with out starting to run out of space?

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I really don't understand anything that's going on with my life right now. Nothing is terrible, but the stress and these feelings aren't helping me to get back to the place I'd like to be.

When the best friend who is the one thing you have that truly feels like home is pushing you away, as far as to have physically pushed you to leave their town early and the one person you'd really like to see again is 5 miles away as opposed to 900 and of course there's other circumstances but even they are absent from the picture. It's hard to choose the next step when the help you want and the things you need are continuing to dwindle.

The worst part of it all is how unaffected you seem. You make comments every now and then that show you know something is off, but when I express how important I feel like it is to work things out, you seem so distant.

I know the reasons for your actions, but that doesn't make it fair or okay. I can't only be wanted when I'm needed and less important the rest of the time. I can't let all this happen now and the minute you start to actually think about it and need me again, just be there like every other time. But then again how could I not just let you back in?

I don't know what you are to me anymore.